This internal struggle

Life is a journey, a process. There is so much in this world that can crush me if it weren't for the impossibly strong arms of Christ holding on to my very being. Life for me has been a struggle. A game of tug of war with God on one side and the desires that war against Him on the other. I, with with all that I am, wish that it was as simple as flipping a switch and my decisions and actions would be holy.

"Sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it." Genesis 4:6.

Cain was a person who tried to short cut the way to God's heart. To have the best for himself and, at the same time, to have the best for God. I am guilty of this sin. I try to short cut my way to God's heart. When He desires a spotless lamb, I offer him vegetables. I keep the best for me and assume that what I choose to give God, is what God will be grateful to receive.

Cain killed Abel in hopes of removing the standard, removing the example. If Abel was no longer in the picture, how could God compare Cain to anyone but himself. How many Abels have I killed in my way of compromise.

My prayer is simple, to be Abel. That I will be a person who will offer the best. That, apart from compromise, I will give my all! Of all that I can give, God desires and accepts only the best.

Life is a process. "Learn to do good." (Isaiah 1:19).